It’s Okay…

it's okay

1. It’s okay that to wake up every morning feeling like the worlds about to end. Like you want to cancel every single plan that’s ever been made for any of the future and crawl back into bed.

2. It’s okay to never think this feeling is going to end.

3. It’s okay that it’s almost always gone half an hour later.

4. It’s okay that sometimes it doesn’t go.

5. It’s okay that some days are still very dark. That some weeks are still dark. That not everything in your brain is quite as perfect yet as I’d hope it to be.

6. It’s okay to have ice lollies for breakfast.

7. It’s okay to feel you need to wear make up if you want to feel confident.

8. It’s okay to suck at applying foundation.

9. It’s okay to walk around with suckilly applied foundation.

10. It’s okay to need half an hour to mentally get ready for any social interaction.

11. It’s okay to be alone. It’s okay to cancel plans. It’s okay to be a bit quiet. People normally don’t mind.

12. If they do mind it’s okay not to care. It’s okay if some people don’t like you. You don’t have to please everyone. Only you and maybe your cat.

13. It’s okay to feel scared.

14. It’s okay to hate that you feel scared.

15. It’s okay to worry no one will like you.

16. It’s okay to feel insanely happy when it turns out they do like you.

17. It’s okay to eat the same thing every day for a week.

18. It’s okay if all you have on your iPod is audiobooks.

19. It’s okay to not like the same things as everyone else.

20. It’s okay to need time to calm down. To need time on your own. To need to take your time.

21. It’s okay to take pride in the little things, to smile for an hour every time you manage to have a real conversation. To celebrate a day without panic.

22. It’s okay to think you’re never going to get better.

23. It’s okay to get better.

24. It’s okay to like watching The Kardashians. It’s okay to really care about their problems. It’s okay to care when celebrities get hair cuts.

25. It’s okay to have conversations with your dog.

26. It’s okay to have conversations with your dog even if your dog isn’t there.

27. It’s okay to try.

28. It’s okay to fail.

29. It’s okay to succeed, and to tell people when you succeed. It’s okay to brag.

30. It’s okay to hate art galleries. It’s okay to hate foreign movies. It’s okay to have not read a novel since Harry Potter.

31. It’s okay if your parents are your best friends.

32. It’s okay to procrastinate, it’s okay to not finish. It’s okay to give up.

33. It’s okay to feel like none of it’s okay. To feel like it’s over every time you fail, every time you stumble. To not understand why it’s not better than okay by now.

34. It’s okay to keep trying.

35. It’s all okay.

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21 thoughts on “It’s Okay…

  1. Scarlett Curtis you are an old soul and an absolutely amazing young woman. I am older than your mum yet you teach me things in every one of your posts. I am so impressed at your honesty and your ability to use words perfectly. I think you are fab.

  2. Thanks Doll for that post, it was like little ray of light in my life, I’ve suffered with (sometimes) crippling anxiety for years and am in a dark place at the mo. Although I’m old enough to be your Mum, I do identify with some of your feelings, and it’s comforting to hear my fears put into someone else’s words and know I’m not on my own. I’m hoping it really will be okay.

  3. NORMAL,NORMAL,NORMAL. Such a wise and clever little duck (sorry second animal metaphor in as many days) ; insight beyond your years that shows your intelligence, beauty and humanity. Also sooooo Funny. Complete package kiddo!

  4. This reminds me of The Fault in Our Stars! Basically okay is another word that expresses love in it. 🙂 And you’re waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay, gazillion times better than okay!

  5. You know how every so often when it’s really hard to see the good, life/karma/the universe/your Mum intervenes without you really looking for it and a tiny ray of light warms your skin? That is what this post was to me today. And for that I thank you.

  6. How about a list of things that are not okay? Imagine the possiblilties:
    1. Throwing poop at people is not okay.
    2. Peeing into your neighbour’s teapot is not okay.
    3. Spitting at moped riders is not okay.
    4. Taking a mud covered dog for a walk on Portobello Road market on a Saturday is not okay.
    5. Practising the didgeridoo in your dorm room at 4am during exam time is not okay.

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